| I think I'm addicted to Solitaire.
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ugh. I hate when he doesn't talk to me. I mean, I know he's busy working & what not.. It's not like I'm asking him to call every night, but he never calls. I was okay with that... but then I found out he's been calling other people. But when I ask him to call me, he's 'busy'. Blah. Whatever. I didn't get mad. It's his life. whatever. But shiiiit. how hard is it to send a text every now n then. How long does it take to press a few buttons. He use to all the time. I feel like he's not that interested, but he won't say it. he just keeps saying nothing changed. I don't mind waiting for him. I told him I would, but I don't wanna wait & then find out he's not interested. I'd rather him be honest now. sigh. drama drama drama. |
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| Sometimes I wish people would just come right out and say exactly what they're thinking/feeling. I hate guessing. I loathe guessing. & yet, it seems to be the only thing I do. When I say something, I want peoples thoughts. I don't want them to agree. to just nod their head in silence. or to change the subject and avoid saying what they feel. Why hide your emotions? Why hide your thoughts? Why hide your feelings? Is it wrong that I need to be told? Does it make me a bad person? I know I have trouble expressing myself sometimes, but ugh. It's hard when other people don't meet me half way, and don't tell me what they're feeling. Instead they say 'nothings changed'. Alright, so I can respect that... your feelings haven't changed, but why have your actions? your attitude. or the way in which you address me now. Why are you not acting like you did before, when you told me. I need reassurance.
So is it a fault in myself for needing that, or a fault in other people for not providing it? |
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